Friday, April 13, 2007

a small struggle, a big leap.

decided to post here today.

Dear Lord, search my heart today. You alone know of the things i struggle, of the things i hidden. Bring them to light Lord, bring my heart to light. And carry on breaking me down....until your will is done.

Today in my defeat i shall find victory knowing and believing in your grace alone.
But tomorrow, my victory will lie in knowing i will not be defeated.

Dear warriors of light. have you been battling too? Dont lose hope. The fight is not yet over.

Wednesday, March 21, 2007

The Fern and the Bamboo.....

The Fern and the Bamboo.....
One day I decided to quit.... I quit my job, my relationship, my spirituality..... I wanted to quit my life.
I went to the woods to have one last talk with God. "God", I said. "Can you give me one good reason not to quit?" His answer surprised me..."Look around", He said. "Do you see the fern and the bamboo?" "Yes", I replied."When I planted the fern and the bamboo seeds, I took very good care of them. I gave them light. I gave them water.
The fern quickly grew from the earth. Its brilliant green covered the floor. Yet nothing came from the bamboo seed. But I did not quit on the bamboo. In the second year the Fern grew more vibrant and plentiful. And again, nothing came from the bamboo seed. But I did not quit on the bamboo". He said. "In the third year, there was still nothing from the bamboo seed. But I would not quit.
In the fourth year, again, there was nothing from the bamboo seed. I would not quit." He said. "Then in the fifth year a tiny sprout emerged from the earth. Compared to the fern it was seemingly small and insignificant. But just 6 months later the bamboo rose to over 100 feet tall.
It had spent the five years growing roots. Those roots made it strong and gave it what it needed to survive. I would not give any of my creations a challenge it could not handle." He said to me. "Did you know, my child, that all this time you have been struggling, you have actually been growing roots. I would not quit on the bamboo. I will never quit on you. Don't compare yourself to others." He said. "The bamboo had a different purpose than the fern, yet, they both make the forest beautiful." "Your time will come, "God said to me. " You will rise high!" "How high should I rise?" I asked. "How high will the bamboo rise?" He asked in return. "As high as it can?" I questioned."Yes." He said, "Give me glory by rising as high as you can."
I left the forest and brought back this story. I hope these words can help you see that God will never give up on you........

Never regret a day in your life. Good days give you Happiness. Bad days give you Experiences.Both are essential to life. Keep going...Happiness keeps you Sweet, Trials keep you Strong,Sorrows keep you Human, Failures keep you Humble,Success keeps You Glowing, But Only God keeps You Going!

Sunday, March 18, 2007

Fighting on~

10 Finally, be strong in the Lord and in his mighty power. 11 Put on the full armor of God so that you can take your stand against the devil's schemes. 12 For our struggle is not against flesh and blood, but against the rulers, against the authorities, against the powers of this dark world and against the spiritual forces of evil in the heavenly realms. 13 Therefore put on the full armor of God, so that when the day of evil comes, you may be able to stand your ground, and after you have done everything, to stand. 14 Stand firm then, with the belt of truth buckled around your waist, with the breastplate of righteousness in place, 15 and with your feet fitted with the readiness that comes from the gospel of peace. 16 In addition to all this, take up the shield of faith, with which you can extinguish all the flaming arrows of the evil one. 17 Take the helmet of salvation and the sword of the Spirit, which is the word of God. 18 And pray in the Spirit on all occasions with all kinds of prayers and requests. With this in mind, be alert and always keep on praying for all the saints.
19 Pray also for me, that whenever I open my mouth, words may be given me so that I will fearlessly make known the mystery of the gospel, 20 for which I am an ambassador in chains. Pray that I may declare it fearlessly, as I should.


The past few weeks had been full of battles. Spiritual battles, exams battle, my own self battle.

Paul tells us to take the full armour of God, not just a partial armour of God. No smart warriors goes to the battlefield with only a shield and not a sword, neither does one goes to a battlefield with only him plate-mail. A warrior enters the battle ground with not only his armours and weapons but a band of brothers willing to die beside each other. I myself have miss this point totally. Often arming myself with words of God, i thought i could battle sin and battle anything that the devil had set for me. But i am so wrong - thus every battle that i enter i lose. And i keep losing. I used to say it's ok, it's ok to lose-as long as i come back to God and repent and repent. But today, i am not pleased with just repentance. I want to win. I want to win every single battle for God.

Oh God prepare me, and equip me. If i perish, i perish...but i rather die than to retreat or back down. In the last chapter of Eph, paul asks us to put on the full armour of God and after putting on our full armour, he asks us to pray that he will tell the world about Jesus. It is war people, but just put on your armour and stay out of the battlefield. Put on your armour, take your weapon and FIGHT.

Friday, February 23, 2007

Victory.

I have been away from here for a little while. God have been near to me everyday, however there are many sins in my life that kept me from updating this place. Have you too been besiege by sin and self-condamnation?

Today i read the book of revealation. A book avoided by many, as it talks about vision, about judgement about punishment and all the things that a horror movie can bring about appears in revealation. From Beast to armagaddeon.

But today as i finished reading this book, God showed me something new. It is not about punishment nor is it about how the earth will be destroyed. What caught me today is VICTORY.
Yup in the end God was victorious. And so we will be, for those who hold firm onto Him. Victorious over ourselves, victory over sin - and death.

God spoke to the 7 churches in revealation. Each of them in different circumstances, but they can be summarise into 3 parts.
1) People that lost their first love - God
2) People that sin- in the area of idolatry/sex.
3) People under perscuation-to the extend ofbeing marty for God- this group of people have no sin.

He told them all though, to hold fast and hold strong onto Him. And He will come and resue us, in shining armour, white horse and a sword. I always believe thats it's not mere coincidence that boys hope to be prince in shining armour and girls hope that their prince will come.

And that day, there will be no more tears. No more tears- no more sorrows.

Dear God check my heart. Am i willing , have i die enough to the cross. Let me be an overcomer. An overcomer that will hold on with unwavering faith.

Thursday, February 15, 2007

The glory of God is man fully alive

The Lord their God will save them on that day as the flock of his people.
They will sparkle in his land like jewels in a crown.
How attractive and beautiful they will be ! - Zech (9:16-17)

"have you no other daughters?" "no," said the man. "There is a little stunted kitchen wench which my late wife left behind her, but she cannot be the bride." The King's son said he was to send her up to him, but the step mother answered, "Oh no, she is too dirty, she cannot show herself!" But he insisted on it, and Cinderalla had to be called.

A familar story? Yup, repeated in many forms too. Frog to prince, Neo the nerd to Neo the superhero, Strider- the lone ranger to Aragorn the King. Be in fairy tales or fantasy stories or crazy sci-fictions, there is a similar plot- a plot to shape and transform someone ordinary or less than ordinary to hero or heroinee.

Isnt this pretty much the same in the bible? Moses who was driven out of out eygpt came back after seeing a burning bush to lead His people out of eygpt. Peter, who denied Christ 3 times, a mere fisherman, did miralces and spoke like no one during pentacost. David, a young boy- untrained in many ways, slewed the great and mighty Goliath.

This is what God has been telling us over and over again. We are transformed. We are changed, as He has given us a new heart. A new heart. So count yourself dead to sin and choose to live from the new heart(romans 8:13). It is true sin still bug our life everyday, thats why even paul says- things that i want to do i do not do, things that i do not want to do i do. Yes we do need to crucify our flesh on a daily basis. But more importantly we need to live by the spirit.

A new heart. Yes we have a new heart. So dont hold back. Go, go and be the Cinderalla/Neo/Superman for Christ. His glory is on you, do not put a veil and cover His glory. It is time to shine like stars- and you will.

Monday, February 12, 2007

Have you read your word today?

Joshua 1:8. Do not let this book depart from your mouth.

Today as i woke up early and started rushing off my unfinished work. I have class at 10am. I look at my watch 815..and thought...its okie still got 2 hours more before i leave home. By the time i completed by work. i realise it was 10am- i was thinking just about time to leave home- just nice for school. Goodness blur me didnt realise i need to leave house by 9am instead of 10 am.

What would u do in such a situation?

Suddenly something struck in my mind. I had not read the word- not on monday and not on tuesday * at least not yet. I cannot stress more that God will do funny things to draw your attention to him. Therefore keep your eyes open, the eyes of your heart- keep them open so that you could see what God's plan for you.


A pure heart that’s what I long for
A heart that follows hard after Thee

A heart that hides Your Word
So that sin will not come in

A heart that’s undivided
But one You rule and reign

A heart that beats compassion
That pleases You my Lord
A sweet aroma of worship
That rises to Your throne

Does your heart follow hard after Him? Does your heart hides His word? Is your heart divided such that the Lord takes only part of it?

As for me, i pray for my heart to beat with more love and compassion- so that a sweet aroma of worship can rise to your throne

Thursday, February 8, 2007

Our holy of the holiest

Christ may dwell in your hearts through faith. Eph(3:17)

What is our heart? Our heart is the dwelling place of Christ. Now i know why Satan will never stop attacking our hearts. It is the dwelling place of Christ. Find your heart and you will find Christ.

Watchman Nee said that we have 2 parts, our outer body and our inner spirit. He mention that inner spirit can always be with God even when our outer body are doing "chores". In another word, we dont have to be worshipping the Lord in church to be with God.

I finally come to understand what he means as God reveals to me that Christ is in our hearts. If we find our hearts, we can always be with God. Here i am talking about the heart the Christ dwells in, not the heart that we once had.

Did Christ came to die on the cross for us, just to wash away our sins? No, he came to give us a new heart. How long have i been missing this point. He didnt just died for us and wash away our sins. He gave us a NEW heart.

I will give you a new heart and a new spirit. I will remove you your heart of stone and give you a heart of flesh-Ezek36:26

But the seeds in the good earth-these are the good hearts who seized the Word, and hold onto it no matter what, sticking with it until there's a harvest - Luke 8:15

Your heart is good. Your heart is good. You know why God can never forsake you? Because He is in your heart.

Do you know what it means when you get your heart back? It means freedom. It's life.

Tuesday, February 6, 2007

The heart of all things.

Above all else, guard your heart, for it is the wellspring of life. Prv 4:23

Tin Woodman had once been a real man. He had a dream, to build a cottage in the woods for his madien. The wicked witch hated his love and casted spells on him that made his limbs useless and had to be replaced by fake ones made of metals. In the beginning it seemed a great advantage and Tin never felt tired and could work all day. He thought he had beaten the witch. But one day, His axe slip and slice his body into 2. The tinner came to his help, made him a new body. But since then he lost his heart.
" The greatest loss I had known was the loss of my heart, while i was in love I was the happiest man" - Wizard of Oz.

Here is a man once full of love, so real and alive. But after a series of blow his humanity was gone. Though he had never-ending strength, he was sortof a machine- just a hollow man. Beware, the Enemy will come and attack your heart, busyiness, anger, fustration are all his weapons, as he knows that your heart is the wellspring of your life.

It is not conicidence that the heart is address more than any other topic in the bible.

Love the Lord with all your Heart

Where your treasure is, there your Heart will be also

Trust in the Lord with all your Heart

Your word I have treasure in my heart, that i may not sin against you.

All a man's way seem right to him, but the Lord weighs the heart.

A heart the fights
So what is a heart?We have often equate heart as emotions, it is true that heart is the source of emotions, however emotions are not the heart, rather they are voices of the heart. Love, despair, fear are all voices of the heart. Its like saying love is a feeling. We know for sure love is more than a feeling. I wouldnt go after a girl and try so hard to impress her, if it is just a feeling.
Our heart is the place where we face reality and face ourselves. What makes you afraid of the dark, what makes you afraid of roaches, what makes us jump in joy when we see a love one?

Take a moment recall the last time you were happy? Like seeing a sunset. Thats what your heart is. Love is the life of your heart. Without Love we will just be machines.

Fight, fight for your heart. Because without it, it is impossible to draw close to God.

Without your heart, you cannot have love.
Without your heart, you cannot have faith.
Without your heart, you cannot do the this you meant to do.
Without your heart, you cannot have God.
Without your heart, you will not have life.

More than guarding your heart, Fight for it.